My mobile phone beeps its alarm in the silent lighted room
while the darkness still looms outside. I rummage under the pillow to reach
mobile phone while my eyes are still blurred due to brief sleep last night. I
can hardly open my eyes in the light that is kept lighted to ensure
watchfulness on my baby for his safety while sleeping aside. I put off the
alarm and look outside the window. Below
my home is the highway. There, I see dazzling lights from a few plying
vehicles but I see not even a single jogger running, it is too early for them,
of course.
It is not easy to wake up this early. I usually wake up
only at 7:30 am, at which, when I look out of the window, I use to see some of
the joggers returning to their homes after running. But of late, I have got to
shoulder extra responsibility having become a father of a child. My wife gave
birth to a son on the 1st September,
2014. Since then, I have been spending sleepless nights, and, at the most, I
get 4 hours to sleep. Worries intensify when the child cries at night which
eventually deprives my sleep. This is how I spend my night.
Besides sleepless night, my wife is still not recovered
from the post-delivery sickness. Her duty of house chore is handed over to me.
So, I wake up early in the morning to get these things done.
It’s only 4: 30 am when my mobile phone beeps its alarm. In
this wee hour of the morning, I wash my face and tidy the rooms. Then, I
prepare breakfast to be fed myself and wife. By that time, day light is already
broken. I have to get ready to go to office. Before that, I wash all nappies of
the child that have been piled up after its usage in the previous night. And I
prepare lunch for my wife to readily feed herself in my absence. Getting these
things done, I go to office.
In the office, I don’t have peace. My mind keeps worrying.
Will not my child fall sick when I m in office? How they would have eaten
lunch? If my child is crying….that sort of bullshits…
Back from the office, I again have to wash nappies that are
used in the day. Then, I have to prepare dinner besides pampering my child when
he cries. It’s very tiresome. And of course, at such time, a bottle of beer
makes me feel better.
The most awkward thing is, having to spend sleepless night
when I am suffering from cough and cold. I really hate coughing incessantly at
night which makes my neighbors awake like me.