My Life as Her Boyfriend!!!

It was my first time falling into the world of love. It was a very thrilling moment for me and I was enjoying every single moment with her. I found the same with her too.

I thought yes! This is the charm of being in love and why most people at a very young age move into relationships. From the very first day I called her, I was kind of attached to her. I could not resist my temptation to call her every now and then. We used to talk through phone every now and then. If I don’t talk with her for a single moment, I felt like as if something was missing in my life. Forget about spending a day without calling her, I couldn't even spend an hour without talking to her. I was missing her every moment.

Sometimes I used to feel that it is very difficult to be in relationship. I used to even feel sick if I do not call her or talk to her. Alas! I loved her to that extent. I couldn't imagine my life without her. Time passed by and our love was growing to the fullest. And moreover my love for her was moving at a greater pace. I loved her more day by day and year by year. I have already made up my mind to be with her and have a beautiful life with her. I have already planned for our life. That was the situation with me when my love for her grew day by day.

Many years passed. We were still at our fully grown stage of love. She went to study in India and it was a very difficult moment for me to let her go. Even I urged her not to go but it was her decision that I had to respect. For three years she was in India although she came here for vacations. We never got long time to stay together. We spent these many years without being together for long. It was a distant love. All those years I feared distance would make her feel lonely and would even sometimes forget me. For that reason I used to call her and even she used to text me. In that way I was happy that our love existed without any major problems.

Never thought there would be the other side in love. I have never anticipated such things in love and was never prepared. There were so many small problems where she sometimes let me cry like a small baby crying for milk. Oops it still gives me goose bumps when I think of such moments.

I managed to overcome her madness with much difficulty all the time. I used to beg her for love like the worst beggar would have ever. And thank god she listened to me at least. She always wanted me to be perfect when she doesn't want to be herself. She points out even the smallest black dot in me and gets mad over it. Even the small mistake I commit, she will blow up to make an issue and declare “I want break up”. Sometimes I even wonder, “Will there be a man who is perfect in everything……” that is what she wants me to be.

I know I might not have made you happy. I know I always make you feel that I am bad and I am good at nothing. But deep inside my heart, I think of you always and no one else. Not a single day I have passed without thinking of you. I have loved you and cared you so long and still I do and will do forever. Only thing is that I could not show you tangibly that I care you and I love you. I am so sorry that I was not able to keep you as you wished to be. Please take in my humble apology. You are and will always be the “queen of my heart”. Love you forever!!!     

                                                THANK YOU!!!